On the 13th May, I discovered a painful lump on my right underarm. The pain went away after some time but the lump never did. Sometimes it’s painful when I touch it, sometimes it’s not. It’s small, about the size of a pea.
At first, I was reluctant to tell my parents about it because I didn’t want them to worry unnecessarily and I didn’t want to make a fuss over a small lump. It might not even be that serious. But it has been almost 2 months now and the lump is still there, so it started bothering me. I told my mum and we went to see a doctor last Wednesday. My mum would usually follow me into the consultation room but this time, she waited outside because she was afraid to hear what the doctor will say about the lump.
After the check-up, the doctor told me that the lump on my underarm might be a swollen lymph node due to unstable hormones. However, she found another lump just above my right breast and suggested me to undergo an ultrasound. She prescribed me antibiotics (which hopefully will reduce the size of the lump while waiting for my next appointment) and referred me to a specialist at Gleneagles KK. I have mixed feelings about this. I’m scared. I honestly am really scared.
So many things are going through my mind right now. What could the new lump be? Is it benign or malignant? Do I have to go for a surgery after this? What will happen to me? Am I dying?! But I’m just 20… *cries*
I managed to set an appointment with the specialist today, at 4 pm. As I’m writing this post, the digital clock at the bottom corner of the right side of my laptop screen shows 2:03 pm. Less than 2 hours left. I’ve prepared myself mentally for the past 2 days. Let’s hope it’s enough and whatever the results are, I hope I will be able to accept it. If you are reading this post until here, please pray for me.